As I sat in the
train heading towards my destination, I wondered if I had made the correct
decision. After all, I had precious little knowledge of those who would be
awaiting me at the station. The only impressions I had of Providence
were from the writings of H. P. Lovecraft, and so I had no idea what to expect
when I arrived in that mystic city.
I allowed my mind
to drift back to the first time I had encountered a Lovecraft story. I was an
impressionable seventeen year old high school student, who, finding himself with
an abundance of free time, undertook the task of locating fiction pertaining to
my favorite subject: horror. Searching through the index file, I saw two books
listed as being written by a person then unknown to me, H. P. Lovecraft.
I tracked down the
books and proceeded to check them out, along with a volume of stories by
Algernon Blackwood. I found a cubicle far away from the general populace, just
in case I began to scream involuntarily; and I picked up the first book from the
pile.
The first story I
read was titled "The Outsider". From that point onward, I was engulfed
in HPL's nightmare worlds of fungoid and amorphous horror; and I loved every
minute of it. I must have read those two books at least four times apiece, but I
never did get around to reading the Blackwood volume.
My obsession with
Lovecraft and his works increased unabated, and my fate was sealed when I
obtained a copy of a magazine called Lovecraft Studies. Being a true Lovecraftian by nature, I enjoyed
the magazine no end, and I wrote its editor, S. T. Joshi, to express my pleasure
with his fine product.
What followed was
an enjoyable correspondence with S. T., although I must admit, I noticed that
his letters were permeated with an unwholesome odour, and they were frequently
covered with small splotches of an unrecognizable fungoid substance. Then came
the letter inviting me to a Lovecraftian gathering on the anniversary of the
exalted master's death, March 15.
I immediately made
plans to attend, but as the date of my departure came closer, I became more and
more tense and uneasy, almost as if I expected something untoward to happen. My
discomfort did not disappear before I boarded the train on an unseasonably warm
Sunday morning.
As the train approached the Providence
station, I became aware of a strange tug upon the fibres of my soul. I knew
that I was quickly approaching my destiny. The train pulled into the station and
I disembarked.
I was immediately
besieged by five wide-eyed people who fairly fell upon me, seeming to
materialize from the very air itself. After overcoming my initial shock at the
appearance of these people, I was introduced to each of them.
I was introduced to
the aforementioned S. T. Joshi, the irrepressible Bob Price and his lady love
Carol, [missing text] suppress the feeling that my new-found friends were
hungrily eyeing me as a wolf eyes a plump sheep.
Climbing into
Jason's car, I was spirited through the alleyways and byways of ancient
Providence. My next few days were spent combing the streets and admiring the age-old
buildings which lined the twisting catacombs of old Providence.
My trip was very
pleasant so far, but I often caught scraps of disjointed conversation
proclaiming that still greater horrors lay ahead.
With each passing
day I grew to love this ancient city more and more, and my new companions along
with it. I was initiated in many strange, unspeakable rites, such as the art of
graveyard wandering, but I had unfortunately missed the forbidden graveyard
ritual which could only be performed with a straw.
Now I ride with these mocking and friendly ghouls on the night wind, and play by day
amongst the catacombs of Thayer Street.
I know that light is not for me, save that of the moon over the domes and spires
of Providence, nor any gaiety save the unnamed feasts of Nitokris beneath Swan
Point; yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of
alienage.